My heart and mind a battle

Through my life one girl saved it
Then another came to test my love for her
I fell into darkness fighting for ether of them
Making life worse

I love them both
I beg one to save my life
When I hate the other for causing me the pain
How can I love both of them and not lose them both as friends
But then again I'm fighting with them both to save my life
Due to me nearly dying of an heart attack

One in my dreams is being the Angel saving me from the other who holds my heart in her hands along with a knife to end me
Why God...why torment me so?
Why give me 2 wonderful beautiful girls and force my heart and mind to battle
I the one that hurt me because I had betrayed her
I want the other one because I was wrong to have made that choice not knowing it would backfire

I am a werewolf because I know I can not control who I am.
I am to in love to let ether of them go from my life
Nore do I not want to lye to them
I am trapped inside
But I'm crying out to the one who used to love me

I truly feel like I'm dying inside for what I did to my friends and family
What I did to these girls
Mother Luna...All Mighty father...show me who the hell I am
Who I am really suppose to be

Am I a werewolf for Hailee
Am I a man for Liz
Or was I destined to be with my father in heaven
I'm scared of who I am

Please Hailee I have realized I love you to much and I know its making you not want me for what I did to Kristina it was never my intention. Kristina is my sister and I hurt her by accident. I made Dee cry. I'll never forgive myself or ask for her forgiveness. I begged Melissa for help to be with you. She tried to make me see I cant ever be with you. They all did. But I'm to stubborn and thinking you are my Angel.

To Liz. I loved you for 3 years. I betrayed you in April. I still cant get that out of my head. I never had a problem with you. But I feel betrayed that you went for Skye and you told me you'd come back. That you would take care of my heart. I'm to sure if you lied to me or not when you said that. I cry for you every night. But I have to ask myself is it worth the tears I shed or the pain in my heart? I would like to know. You aren't a selfish person Kitty. Nore a b**** ether. Your a wonderful artist and girl that stole my heart away.

To confusion to love
What is worth living for?
What is worth fighting and losing friendships for?
What is worth losing family for?

Both of these girls I trust with my heart
Which one can fix this broken heart and win me over
Even though both of them I have driven away my heart and mind not telling me who I need or what I need to be to be strong